One of the hardest parts of my recovery journey from the traumatic

effects of being raised and marrying into a narcissistically abusive environment has been realizing that the people I envisioned going through life with would remain in my past.

Things will only charge if someone self-reflects and embarks on a recovery journey. I am open to anyone who chooses to meet me in a healthy space that is free of drama, toxicity, and anything associated with the imbecile; they so successfully led everyone to believe I was.

I was experiencing the effects of narcissistic abuse and emotional neglect from most individuals whom I thought loved me and had my back.

It’s clear to anyone with eyes or a heartbeat that I struggled with incredible mental illness from living in survival mode; it is now gone.

I was previously traumatized in my home environments. Much of the traumatic abuse I endured was supported in an evangelical church environment where abuse was rampant at the time; emotional intelligence had yet to become part of mainstream Christianity.

My central nervous system was traumatized by the abuse, and not unlike Sybil- famous for survival with multiple personalities, I disassociated with reality. Disassociation was my animal instinct so that I wouldn’t take my life. I have always lived in deep pain from the abuse I didn’t understand. I disassociated in survival mode, living an altered reality where things were wonderful.

Even in my safe second marriage, it has taken almost a decade and much mental health care for me to acknowledge the fact that I am safe and adored. I am so grateful for God’s healing and restorative nature and for the advances in mental health care that have allowed me to start my mid-50s with a healthy, intelligent, contributive mind. I am using my recovery to reach many still living in darkness.

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