As I begin to market the content God has allowed me to experience in my 50+ years of narcissistic mind control, I will no longer be visiting you in my bathrobe.
I am a professional now; I have book tours and speaking engagements in the future.
One of the coolest parts of my growth has been the husband God chose for the second half of my life. He is teaching me how to dress. I raised myself, and this marriage is the first time anyone has invested themselves in teaching me.
We both have experienced narcissistic abuse and have never intentionally hurt the other. We haven’t fought because we were people pleasers; we are growing in communication. We experience emotional safety when we share our needs, and we are getting so close. We are growing individually and as a couple.
I have been sharing my trauma recovery journey publicly on this channel; feel free to go back and see the miraculous healing journey, from decades of suicidal tendencies to planning my hopeful future.
I ugly cry every single day still, but I also have lengthy periods where I do not feel pain just for existing. If you hurt because you are alive, trust me, YOU CAN RECOVER!
God was all I had as I detached from every normal thing I knew. I found myself on a prosperous road with healthy people who value me.
GOD is enough.
Imagine losing a limb and miraculously growing a new healthy one in your 50s. This is how I feel, having recovered from over 50 years of the effects of mental illness due to a broad spectrum of narcissistic abuse.
I have gone from preparing to take my life if I can’t handle the pain to following God and allowing my story to bring hope to millions of people.
The pain I feel now is from grieving what I have had to let go of. If you truly love something, you cannot escape grief. It comes in waves, but I have coping tools and joy now.
For updates on my upcoming book Spoiled, Rotten, Rich, Kid: A Different Kind of Trauma and to see my other books, please stay in touch at https://charlottessoul.com/
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